alright... today's been okay. I got to dissect a chicken wing with Lydia and Niamh, i was in a bad mood, so cutting something made me feel better. It wasn't me, so i've still kept my promise. No more cutting, no matter how shit the day.  Bae and I have come to an understanding and we're okay now. So I'm alright, still a little heartbroken, but I'll be fine