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Ugh, I've given up on friends... Connor has damaged me so bad that I actually don't want to even be here... He's made me feel so bad...

Connor: Maddy ik you hate me
Me: I don't hate you. That's rediculous
Connor: there is hatred in your soleright now i’m stcking to my guy-friends anyways because i’m finding girls too difficult for me.sometimes i’m sad and wanna kill myself (yesterday), sometimes people are being nice and i feel alright (today) we shouldn’t talk anymore me talking hasn't helped you never really has. I think we should stop talking and ignore eachother for your own good... And safety.
Me: okay so here this goes again. You know what, last year you said a bunch of shit to me that made me mad. It's happening again. Yes, my sole is dark, i am a dark person. I hate a lot of things.... but that's just me. I am emo and i have so many issues wrong with me. you were a nice kid. You made sure i was okay and hey, let me remind you of something you said the other day "i can't ALWAYS be there for you." A real friend would, like Jack. he messages me when he notices i am down, he will talk with me. You fucking poke me and make me feel even worse. Hey, wanna know why i was away today? because of YOU. I litteretly have a fear of school now. I hate the friends i've made and how much i diapoint them and my parents. I know i have depression and that brings you down, but you out of all people should know how this feels. To feel so alone and to be haunted by voices inside my head and want to die every day. I cut because of how bad i feel and i need to punish myslef because of how much of a mistake and disapointment i am. So you like me? i don't think you could fucking deal with the monster inside. OH, YOU WANT ME TO IGNORE YOU??? I TRY!!! BUT YOU FUCKING POKE ME AND MAKE ME FEEL BAD EVERYDAY AFTER SCHOOL WITH YOUR VENTS! IT'S TIME YOU FUCKING DEAL WITH WHO I AM. i know i am a bad friend... and i'm over it.... i've given up on making friends and even helping anyone. I can't do it anymore if i am being treated like this... i'm over it...

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I am done trying. I've tried for so long to keep friends and help but I just drag you guys down.... I'm so sorry I can't be good enough for anyone...

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Infernallect Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Meh, don't worry about it lol. It's just your average crappy teen drama. It'll blow over soon and you'll be better.
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Eve-The-Emoji-Domo Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016
....
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:iconcity-galaxies:
city-galaxies Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Are you okay Eve?
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Eve-The-Emoji-Domo Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2016
yeah i'm okay
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
cool. good
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RilesThePirate Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016   Traditional Artist
Whoa, let's talk about this..
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can't. I gotta sleep
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RilesThePirate Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016   Traditional Artist
You're worrying me
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sorry... I'm just in a difficult spot right now...
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RilesThePirate Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016   Traditional Artist
I'll be thinking about you
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city-galaxies Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i too
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RilesThePirate Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2016   Traditional Artist
:3
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