kinda feeling unstable... I had a breakdown yesterday during French. I don't exactly know what it is, but i've been fragile lately. Nothing bad has really happened... could be that I've lost a few friends, my mum got suicidal, dad doesn't notice me, i can't talk to Rob or if i am just an overemotional little girl. Probably the last 2... but idk. Something is screwing me over, i just don't know what it is. I have French next and i fucking hate it, so joy. I only chose it because i knew i could make my parents proud, but it's just too difficult for me. Everyone else speaks fluent French, and i feel like the dumb kid. It's takes so much to translate a sentence. It pisses me off that she (the teacher) always speaks french expecting me to know what she's saying. Ugh, i can't drop out of it or anything. i need the language and the grades, i just, it's killing me. I don't want to see anyone in that class today, even friends. I hate communicating with people right now. I'm sorry Lydia and Eve, I'll probably be on my own again. I hate talking to others at the moment. I dunno why. but it's killing me to talk to others right now. and how the teacher said "Do you want to see Louise?" (the school councilor). I'm okay. I just don't want to be in this class, with these people, with you. She's really nice the teacher, but i don't like it when they worry about me. I'm sorry guys, it just calms me down to let out my thoughts.